Wednesday, November 23, 2011

On letting go

A few months back, I tried to convince my mom to let me go to Manila and work there. Good news is, she said yes. And then she said no. I think my ability to constantly change my mind comes from her.

But I never questioned her decision and went on with my life. But just about a few days ago, when I told her I didn't wanna be a nurse, she asked me what my plans would be. And before I could answer, she hastily said, "Whatever your decision is, just don't go to Manila."

With all these conflicts happening in my life right now, I guess it is but natural for me to want out. Out of the house, out of the city, out of the people who didn't know me but judge me as if they do, out of the people who do know me really well that they pity me. I just want out and do something new.

But my parents won't let me. For heaven's sake, I'm a fully pledged adult and I believe I have the right to decide for my own. Not that I didn't value their opinion but then again, I was not asking for permission, I was letting them know whether they approve or not.

Is it too hard for parents to let go? I mean, they have to do it sooner or later and how else would I learn to be responsible? I just want to be independent and I wish they didn't see that as such a bad thing. I know my parents mean well but I feel so restricted. I wanna go out and see the world for what it's worth, and meet people, travel, have fun and let loose.

I know it's never always gonna be easy. But how else would I learn? Isn't that what they prepared me for? When is the right time to let go?

I'd love to hear your thoughts too!



  1. You just need to keep reminding them and showing them that you can be trusted to make your own decisions. Try having a heart-to-heart. Sometimes parents just need a lil nudge and reassurance. :) Good luck!

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  2. Hey Biang, just want to share my two cents :) Maybe your parents just need to see that you have a plan and that you're gonna be alright when you get to Manila. I bet they're just concerned about you and you need to show them that you're ready to take control of your own life. I'm gonna share something my mom told me (rephrased) 'don't run just to get away, but only if you picture yourself somewhere else', so if this is what you really want, you have to fight for it. She told me this back when I was deciding if I should quit my job or not - which I did. Hehe.

    Anyway, good luck and I hope you get to live your dreams! :)

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