Day 75 and 76: Eating the stress away

Today is a very stressful day for me. It's so stressful I had to cheat on my diet for the second time in a row this week by eating pasta. When I got out from work, I hurriedly went to my favorite place to eat Carbo-freaking-nara and I devoured it like I haven't eaten anything luke it before just to eat my stress away. I know it's not healthy but nothing ever really feels good after a hard day's work. For the past two days now, I have been leaving work an hour late because of a lot of things to be done. I haven't been able to go to the gym and worst, my stats are inconsistent as ever. I cannot wait for July to come and the more I think about it, the day goes by every slowly. It's the only thing that's motivating me to go to work everyday. I just hope I'll be able to cope up with this stress in a more modest and healthy way than eating it away. Anyway, that's all I gotta share. Let's pray everything will be better by the morrow. :)

Day 73 and 74: Weekends

I know, I know, I haven't posted anything for the past two days. I have no excuse. Well, actually I do, I specifically put all the blame on the lame internet connection here at the house. My phone is not even able to open Facebook even if it's already connected to the Wifi. Talk about crappy!

So anyway, I had a very good two-day rest last weekend. On Saturday, I woke up really early to do my morning jog which is my very first ever since I set foot in Cebu last year. After an hour, 45 minutes of it mostly spent just walking, brisk walking if you may, I went back home and did my laundry. I took a bath and the ate a very heavy brunch. At 9 in the morning, I felt ever so productive compared o my usual mornings where I just lay down and get lazy. In the afternoon, I had ny siesta and when I woke up, I had the strongest urgency to watch a movie so I though 'why the hell not?' So I pulled myself together, had an early dinner with my roommate and went to the movies alone. I watched The Great Gatsby which was a little boring and sad but it is literature in the strictest sense of the word. But I enjoyed the movie a lot, no questions.

After I went home, I drowned myself with watching movies again which I ended up sleeping at 3 in the morning which gave me an excuse to wake up late. And I did. At around nine in the morning, that's when the internet started acting up and would not allow me to watch any more films. And it went on like that for the whooole day. I had no choice but to entertain myself with Candy Crush. And late at night, I bawled my eyes out crying because I missed my family, especially my parents. The feeling was a combo of longingness and being guilty for a lot of things mainly for not pursuing my profession. Everything came all at once that I couldn't stop myself from crying until I fell asleep. And ended up going to work with fake eyeglasses on because my eyes were too sore from all the crying.

Anyway, for today's happenings, I'll write all about it tomorrow. I'm too tired to wrack my brains out for anything better to write. Bon Nuit!

Day 72: Friday fever

I was late than usual in going to work today because of the pouring rain. The weather here in Cebu is nothing short of bipolar to the point that it's extremely hot and sunny during the day and rain pours heavily at night until the wee hours of the morning. I was already thinking of skipping my daily morning walk and commute instead when the rain suddenly stopped as I was going out of the house. Thank God! Anyway, it's Friday once again and almost everyone in the office are prematurely feeling the rest day mood, including me. I can't wait to chill and read my abandoned books for the weekend. I know how that sounds to some of you, BOOOORING. But hey, we all have our own dose of pick-me-uppers so leave me and my books alone!haha And because of the Friday fever, I didn't mind too much that I have very low metrics at work. I could whine all day about that but that'll just ruin my mood so I chose to put it aside and I'll face it on Monday. The team has been consistently doing good for the past two days and I feel like I'm bringing them down. I guess I'll have to double my efforts by next week then. Ugh, work! I'm already dreading Monday!

Day 71: One step at a time

Today is not a very good day for me. It's one of those days where I woke up at the wrong side of the bed that the rest of the day was just pure bad luck. I kept dropping my things while I was preparing for work and when I arrived at the office, most of my calls were disputes, some of them I never bothered routing to the survey because of how awful the call was. I wasn't able to go to the gym because I had to finish all my interactions for the day. I just hope that I won't have any detractors tomorrow especially now that I'm already able to pick up my scores a little bit. And just a random realization, time really does fly so fast. It seems like it was only yesterday when I took my licensure exam and now two years later, I'm in a totally different career trying my luck out. Of course it gets harder everyday but then again it's all about the attitude and how you deL with everyday endeavours. I'm just taking it one step at a time. How's your Thursday so far?

Day 69 and 70: Back to work

Finally back in Cebu and back to the real world. Workload is heavier this week since most of our time is spent on the phone. We are on our second week so there's lesser induction time. I'm not complaining though 'coz I'm really learning a lot and my score is slowly going up, still low for the target but it's improving. I've also had a couple of inspirations along the way and it really helps. I just hope that I do better everyday so that I could reach my goal in a few week's time. For my workout regimen, it's another story. I haven't been able to go to the gym for almost a week now and my interest is slowly wavering so I have to get back on track by the morrow. I'm still following my diet though so I think that's still good. I just need to drag my ass after work to pick up where I left off. Anyway, that's about it for now. TTYL. :)

Day 64-68: Five day hiatus

With my five day hiatus, I almost don't know where to start. So much has happened in the past couple of days that I haven't been able to keep up with the writing. I'll try to remember every bit of it as much as I can to share with you. Let's start with Thursday, shall we?

Day 64: Thursday -As per usual, the day started out fine, still walked myself on my way to work. We took calls in the morning and by lunch, the score from yesterday's calls were already posted. Aaand, I still had a very low score. I wanted to cry from embarrassment but I know better than that. Yes, I'm very disappointed but I can't let that go through me or else I'll be quitting my job in no time. After work, we had to skip gyn since we had a team dinner at Mr. A, a restaurant way uphill giving you a view of the whole city. Location was good and the food was average but not cost-wise for big groups like us because their serving is not that big. After dinner, we all went home and I went straight to bed for the next day's duty.

Day 65: Friday -By now, I'm already too excited to go home to CDO. Elections are coming up on Sunday and some of us were allowed a day for us to be able to exercise our rigt to suffrage which means a very long weekend for me! I'm planning to travel by sea a few hours after work so that I'll arrive early Saturday morning. However, most of the trips were already fully booked so my sister had to purchase airline tickets at the last minute which will be leaving early Saturday morning. After work, I had my tickets printed out and bought my sister's favorite cake as pasalubong.

Day 66: Saturday -I woke up extremely early today for my 5 am flight. It's been raining really hard and I was a bit worried that my flight will be cancelled but just after I left the house on the way to the airport, the rain stopped for good. I arrived around 6 in the morning and itwas probavly one of the best trips I've had so far. I was able to witness the sun rise and since it was also raining a bit in Cdo, I saw the tiniest hint of rainbow which was really nice. We arrived ahead of time so I had to wait for my sister to pick me up. We were planning to go to Camiguin Island but due to financial constraints, we went for other options instead.

Day 67: Sunday -Today is Mother's day and I was the earliest to wake up to greet my mom. We left for Dahilayan Adventure Park shortly after. When we arrived, the rain poured like there was no tomorrow. We decided to have lunch while waiting but even after we finished, the rain was still pouring heavily so we agreed to just leave and visit some other time. A couple of kilometers after, the rain stopped and we had to go back to the park again. We tried on the luge which was really thrilling and fun. After the ride, the rain poured hard again and we really wanted to play golf so we did so even with the heavy downpour. And mind you, it was ten times more fun having done that, even if we had to go home soaking wet. And since it was Mother's fay, I treated my mom and all the others for dinner at oir go-to restaurant. It was a bit crowded but still, nothing beats their food and customer service.

Day 68: Monday -After a couple of weeks wanting to go to the beach, I was finally able to do so today. We had to leave after lunch because of some prior engagements but we still had a lot of fun. Nothing beats the feel of sand on my feet undercthe scorching heat of the sun. We stayed their for a couple of hours and had to leave before sundown because my nephew accidentally scraped his feet pretty bad and also my flight back to Cebu leaves by 8 in the evening. When we got to the city, the rain was so heavy I got worried my flight would get cancelled. Thankfully it didn't however it was delayed by a couple of minutes and I arrived in Cebu really late already. And I had to sleep early for the next day's shift.

Day 63: Make mistakes and learn from it

As much as I would like to be positive and all, I can't help but really feel bummed about what happened today. It started out fairly well however, towards the middle of the shift, the scorecards were released bearing results from yesterday's performance. Aaaaaand...I sucked. I was literally at the bottom of the list amongst the 21 of us. How awesome is that? (insert sarcasm here)

Being the competitive person that I am, I'm always hard on myself whenever I don't perform amd I could go on and on about every fucking feeling that I have right now but I'll spare you that. It's gonna be hard but I'm giving myself a chance. It's still too early to tell and I'm just starting out with the account and as what I said, there's still a lot of things that I need to learn in order for me to be better. I believe this is the best time for me to make mistakes and if I have to learn it the hard way then so be it.

Being at the bottom is both challenging and embarrassing not only to my teammates but also to my trainor and team leader. But also being at the bottom, as what I've learned before is not the end of it. If not, it gives you the opportunity to prove and improve yourself. And when you're down there, there's no other way but up. And yes, this is my way of comforting and reassuring myself that it's fine to be at the bottom, for now.

Anyway, enough of these hulabaloos. Let's go back to the topic of healthy living. After work, I went straight to the gym with my teammates. We did cardio for the first half and then we worked on the abdominal exercises for the next half hour. Since we did cardio yesterday, it was not that hard anymore however, the abdominal exercises was really killing me. I think I'm gonna be having a hard time pulling myself out of bed tomorrow morning.haha

So, was Wednesday kinder to you than it was with me?