Day 7: Any plans for the future?

It's almost midnight and I still haven't finished this yet. This is one of those days where my creativity gland (if there is even one) decides not to be creative and takes it's time off. Oh well. Everybody needs a little time off every now and then.

So I started my day early today. As I've said I have a lot of scutwork to do in so little a time, I had no choice. Good news is, I'm almost done! Woot! I just need to finish a few more things then I'm off to Cebu again to start something new. I'm a little scared 'coz I'm gonna be venturing into the unknown again, definitely out of my comfort zone. But then again, I wanted this. I guess that's motivation enough, right?

To tell you the truth, I'm kinda' missing the environment of my previous workplace and part of what scares me the most is the possibility that it would never be just as good. But we'll never know unless we try. That's how it always has been.

On a totally unrelated note, I got to read Crusader (our school's official publication) today and I was impressed. On the way home, I sat next to a lady holding out her copy and it's been a while since I got a hold of one so I decided to borrow it  for a while. And while I was browsing through the features, I genuinely thought it was better than what we had before. Or maybe I just didn't really paid any attention to it before. But in all seriousness, I found it really informative that even a person not attending the school would appreciate. And I had to muse why I didn't think of joining the publication before. I guess maybe college just overwhelmed me a little that it never entered my mind. Damn, I should've gotten myself into that publication!

For the rest of the day, I just decided to park my lazy ass off at home. And then Mom arrived a while earlier who decided to have a mandatory "talk time" with me. Don't get me wrong, I love talking to my mom but just like my sister, she tends to ask questions I'm not really comfortable answering. Like, my chosen career path. I know she means well, she's not forcing me into anything (and I love her for that) but she just never gives up on the nursing thing. And then she drops the bomb with the question on my plans for the future which I clearly have to assess myself with over and over again. So, what are my plans for the future? I'm gonna have to pull out an all-nighter for that. This is gonna be a long night.

P.S. I made pasta today after months of not setting foot in a kitchen. And if you ask me, best pasta ever! (At least it was for me.haha)

Day 6: Have you seen my boyfriend?

I'm so tired I'm probably gonna doze off anytime now. I was up and about the whole day doing errands and the heat outside is draining all of my energy out. Summer is already lurking around the corner and as much as I love it, I cannot handle the heat unless I'm in the beach or something. And since I don't have the luxury of driving my own car around the city, I had to walk and commute, and walk again under the scorching heat of the sun and the unforgiving pollution was of no help either. Ah, the perks of living in a third world country.

I had to retire in the afternoon or else I'm gonna be tanned for all the wrong reasons. I'm gonna be resuming everything by tomorrow. Hopefully, I would get a lot of things done than I did today and I pray the sun would be a little shy tomorrow. Believe me, I am not even halfway there yet and I'm planning to go back to Cebu by the end of the week since my friends and I are planning or a weekend getaway and I have to be there or else they're gonna disown me. Like, for real. Haha

I did get a very interesting question from my sister a couple of hours ago. I really have to avoid being alone with her. She asks questions I'm not really comfortable answering. She asked me why I still don't have a boyfriend until now. I'm like, how am I supposed to answer that question? Geez, I don't know, maybe he got hit by a bus on the day fate finally decided it was time we meet. Or maybe he became a priest or married somebody else because I was too late. Well, excuse my language again but I don't even fucking know. There should be like a law that inhibits people to ask those kinds of questions. That  should be illegal. Period.

Thank God I'm too tired to think tonight. I gotta get me some sleep for tomorrow's errands again. Mr. Sun, please be good to me.

Day 5: It's Complicated

You know how sometimes, you already know without a doubt that a certain thing/action is utterly and completely unacceptable and yet you find yourself doing the same thing over and over again? That is what's happening to me now. And it sucks. It really, really sucks. Big time.

I received an email from someone just this morning and I badly want to respond to it. But I'm trying to restrain myself not only because it's not right but mostly because I have to get it over and done with. You probably have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sorry. It's just that, everything is so complicated I don't even know where to start. Well obviously I'm talking about a guy. Who happens to be taken. And I happen to be single. It's not really rocket science, I think you can figure that out in a heartbeat.

I would've wanted you to read the email but I'll keep it to myself for now until I figure out what to do with it. So yeah, that basically covered my morning. I did have to do some errands in the afternoon though so I had to leave it be for the meantime. I had to take care of legal documents and stuff since I lost my wallet last year, together with it all my cards and ID's. I hope I get all of it done before I head back to Cebu.

P.S. I got to visit my alma matter today and the school looks amazing. There were a lot of changes since the last time I had been there and when I came there today, I wished I was a student back again. I probably just felt a little too nostalgic. Just a little.

Day 4: It's a girl!

One of my favorite moments when I'm at home is waking up every morning to the sound of my nephew's laughter, or in some unfortunate cases, hysterical tantrums (talk about waking up at the wrong side of the bed. haha). He almost always wakes up very early in the morning and he wakes everyone up just to play. And this morning was no different. Thankfully, this time, tantrums were off the window but I was greeted with a lot of shouting and pounding at my back, asking me to open my eyes and play with him. God, I am in love with this child!

So anyway, today is my friend Tiffany's baby shower so you'll probably read a lot about babies in today's post. But before that, I forgot to mention that yesterday, I had my nails done and by far, that was the worst I've ever experienced. We had one of those home service thingy and I know it's a little unsterile but it saves me a whole lot of money so I decided to go for it. She was the worst. She managed to injure at least a finger for each hand and a toe for each foot. I am so not getting her services again. I'd rather pay a lot than risk getting injured for something I can do myself.

Now going back, as I mentioned, I was gonna attend a baby shower late in the afternoon and since I didn't have any gift yet, I had to scour for one in the morning. I had to bring my sister over because I had no idea what to buy. Turns out, she wasn't a big help either. Well, she did pitch in some ideas but some of them were too pricey and some, I just plainly didn't like, Meanwhile, the ones that I did like were also either too common or too impractical. In the end, I settled for baby pillows. I know, how lame can I get? Well at least it's better than nothing!haha

I arrived a little early even if I almost got lost along the way (I am not good with directions, I tell you). And the first thing I noticed when I arrived was this:

I guess by now, you would've known what the baby's gender is. Everything was in girly colors and the cake was too cute I almost wanted to take it home. Old friends and acquaintances also managed to drop by to join in on the fun. After eating, they prepared some games and usually, I don't participate on those thing mainly because (believe it or not), I'm too shy. But this time around, I did not only join one but two of the games and although my team lost in both games (I know, such a loser!), I still had a whole lot of fun.

I never really got the chance to sit down and talk with my friend but I'm really happy for her. A little scared but happy. I did not expect she'd get pregnant at an early age (I'm sorry but 22 is still early for me. haha) but I'm very proud of how she's handling it so far. I know for a fact it's not easy but I I also know she'd make a good mom. And she's having a girl, it can't be that bad (I guess). I can't wait to be a 'ninang' soon! For now, I'm leaving you with a photo of my very pregnant friend, so pregnant I was afraid she would deliver anytime during the party. haha

Day 3: Home Sweet Home

Maayong Gabii (Good Evening) straight from Cagayan de Oro City! Woot Woot! I think God must've known how excited I was to be home that the ship I boarded surprisingly arrived way earlier than I expected. Plus, it didn't rain, which meant I was able to sleep and not worry about things I'm only making up in my mind. Haha.

When I'm on board, I'm always curious and a little anxious of who I'm gonna be sharing cubicles with. Well, the elusive cute guys were as always, elusive. But I did witness something just as interesting. The person who occupied the opposite bed was a male Muslim and just before the ship left, he unpacked this small carpet-like thingy that they use when they pray (I'm sorry I don't know what they call it). He positioned himself to pray just right in front me. It was a little awkward for me but he didn't seem to mind and he just went on with his prayer naturally, like he was just combing his hair. I'm always amazed with how they are so unashamed of their faith which is not very common in some Christians.

After a  while, maybe I got too caught up with my reflections that even if we haven't left Cebu yet, I was already missing it. Crap. Plus, the other two ladies on the right side of my bed can't seem to stop talking and I can't seem to stop myself from listening (to my defense, they were really loud, or maybe it was just too quiet that I couldn't help but overhear). I found out they also got acquainted with the company I just left and then I was reminded again of the people and the memories I'm going to terribly miss. Double Crap.

So anyway, my first day at home wasn't really that remarkable. I spent the morning watching my favorite TV shows, which I never get to watch when I'm away. And I played like crazy with my nephew who is even crazier and wilder and is everything synonymous to hyperactive. He's already attending school and has been showing off everything he has learned, it's amazing.

I also learned my sister's graduation soiree is up next week so we had to help her find a dress to wear. And boy did we have a hard time. You see, my sister is not your average teenager, size-wise. She is bigger than me and she's not even in high school yet. I mean, you get the picture, right? We circled every shop and we would find a dress but it was always too small, or too sparkly, or somebody already has it, etc. In the end, we only had one prospect and she wasn't even too happy about it. Pfft.

P.S. I'm hoping I get to travel outside the country this year. My sister is already busy booking stuff and all but nothing's official yet. Fingers crossed!

Day 2: Bored as Hell

I don't have much to share today mainly because I practically didn't do anything worth mentioning. I did pack my bags and then took a shower (or maybe it was the other way around) but that's pretty much it. I'm just killing time waiting for my trip tonight. I 'm kinda worried though 'coz it's a little too gloomy, looks like it's going to rain (I desperately hope not)and although I love a little rain at night generally but definitely not on nights when I have to board a ship (insert all negative imagery possible here).

Oh and one good news though. My favorite roommate got her application for full scholarship approved at St. Luke's Medical Center and she's going to study medicine there starting this June. How awesome is that? For those who are not familiar with the school/hospital, it's pretty awesome, I tell you. Ah, what I would give to have the same kind of opportunity. But I am very happy for her.

On another note, I'm thinking of selling the books I've collected over the years for a fairly low price. I mean, there's just like twenty of them but they're really good books. And although I figured I wouldn't be biying too much of them since I discovered ebooks (don't get me wrong, still nothing compares to them good 'ol paperback but they help me save a lot of money so yeah), I still feel a little clingy to them. I'm gonna have to decide on that soon.

I guess that's all I have for now. I'm gonna be prepping up for my trip in a while and I still have to buy my sisters some cupcakes from Sweet Little Things before I head on. Just for the record, SLT have the best cupcakes I've tasted so far (a little pricey but worth it). I'll tell you more about that sooon!

Day 1: Too much going on

Excuse my language and I know this is so random but I fucking hate password resets. It took me almost an hour trying to get in two of my email accounts because I shamelessly forgot the password on each of them. Ah, such pain I went through!

So anyway, that was probably not the best way to start this post after a long breather. I'm sorry. Let me start over. Well,  I'm supposed to write about how my day went. I'm doing a self-imposition kind of thing wherein I write down what happens to me during the day (or night) for the next 365 days (and if you know me well, you'd probably roll your eyes and bet I don't even get to Day 10). I'm not entirely sure what I'm supposed to achieve with this but yeah, I've decided to try it anyway. Yes, I maybe a little too late on the diary thing but whatevs.haha

To start it off, my day didn't really start well. I woke up early, waaay too early. As per routine, I checked social media for anything less than boring. You might be wondering what I did last night. Uhm, I didn't do anything because finally, after too much thinking and tossing and turning, I had the courage to quit my job. But let's skip that part for the moment 'coz I don't wanna talk about it yet. So going back, because I didn't have dinner the night before, the effects came early as well, which reminded me I have to eat. So I did.

And I regretted it twenty minutes after. Blame it to the freakin' dysmennorrhea, I puked every piece of what I ate. And everything hurt. From my leg to my back, especially my back! I tell you, it is killing me. It sucks when your body finally gets you for not getting any exercise. Or sometimes, it just sucks to be a girl. Finally, I dozed off and thank God, I felt better after waking up.

Without anything better to do, I decided to clean my room, well technically my space, because I share the room with four other people. And thanks to them, I am forced to do some cleaning every now and then. And then I decided to go out after two days of self-imposed depression. Haha. I'm kidding. I just had to get my laundry and buy a ticket back home. Yes, I am coming home! I was hoping I could get a ticket for tonight's trip, turns out they didn't have any scheduled trip so I had to stall for one more night. I haven't been away that long but gahd, I miss home. I cannot wait!

If anything, I was more productive than the day before and the day before that. So I decided to treat myself to dinner at my favorite place just across the street. The pasta was a little overcooked but I didn't mind. I did at first but I decided not to make a big deal out of it. I mean, it's better than not having anything to eat at all.

P.S. This is gonna be a late post because again, I dozed off after dinner. Pfft.