Day 63: Make mistakes and learn from it

As much as I would like to be positive and all, I can't help but really feel bummed about what happened today. It started out fairly well however, towards the middle of the shift, the scorecards were released bearing results from yesterday's performance. Aaaaaand...I sucked. I was literally at the bottom of the list amongst the 21 of us. How awesome is that? (insert sarcasm here)

Being the competitive person that I am, I'm always hard on myself whenever I don't perform amd I could go on and on about every fucking feeling that I have right now but I'll spare you that. It's gonna be hard but I'm giving myself a chance. It's still too early to tell and I'm just starting out with the account and as what I said, there's still a lot of things that I need to learn in order for me to be better. I believe this is the best time for me to make mistakes and if I have to learn it the hard way then so be it.

Being at the bottom is both challenging and embarrassing not only to my teammates but also to my trainor and team leader. But also being at the bottom, as what I've learned before is not the end of it. If not, it gives you the opportunity to prove and improve yourself. And when you're down there, there's no other way but up. And yes, this is my way of comforting and reassuring myself that it's fine to be at the bottom, for now.

Anyway, enough of these hulabaloos. Let's go back to the topic of healthy living. After work, I went straight to the gym with my teammates. We did cardio for the first half and then we worked on the abdominal exercises for the next half hour. Since we did cardio yesterday, it was not that hard anymore however, the abdominal exercises was really killing me. I think I'm gonna be having a hard time pulling myself out of bed tomorrow morning.haha

So, was Wednesday kinder to you than it was with me?

Day 62: Walk with me?

Hi everyone! How's Tuesday treating you so far? For me, this is one of the most tiring day I ever had since I came back here in Cebu. Tiring and fulfilling at the same time. And I could say, I couldn't be any prouder of myself.haha

I woke up pretty early today and got prepared for work ahead of time. The reason being? I decided to save my daily fare allowance in exchange of walking my way to work. I get to save money and get an exercise at the same time, hitting two birds with one stone, eh? I'm also keeping up with my my diet for the second week in a row now. Well, I wouldn't really call it a diet but it's more like eating healthy and eliminating the unnecessary.

When it comes to work, I would say it's a little bit stressful since we are on our first day of Nesting which means more phone time. There were a lot of things I still had struggles with but I'm taking it one step at a time. The destination may be too far but it's already visible. I just have to work my ass off for it. After work, I went straight to the gym with some of my teammates. It's my first day there so we only did some cardio for an hour. It's one of the benefits provided by the company so might as well take advantage of it.

After workout, I decided to walk my way from work to the house again. It's not that far so I think I can keep up with this everyday. Let's just hope it pays off. As what I read in Instagram a while ago, "Go for 'Oh shit, you got hot!' :)

Day 61: The world is filled with Mondays

'The world is filled with Mondays' -Charlie Brown

Why is it that weekends seem to go a mile a minute while weekdays always run out of gasoline? Oh Monday, when will you ever be appealing to me? Nevertheless, I'm still grateful for another day given to me. This week is gonna be challenging and I'm not quite sure if I'm even ready for it yet but then again, I'll never know unless I try, right? And technically, tomorrow is my Monday since we didn't have much to do today. We just practiced for our presentation the whole morning and had a few navigational assessment for the tools we'll be using for tomorrow.

Speaking about our presentation, we had to present something at the last hour in the operations to all the tenured agents. Personally, I think we started out really lame even with a lot of practice but in the end, it turned out to be fun. We had some of the people dance to 'Gentleman' and everyone welcomed us with cheers and applause. But tomorrow's gonna be a different story. Tomorrow will be the start of war.

Anyway, after losing compliance on my diet for the past two days, I finally got back on track. I will also start going to the gym tomorrow togethet with some of my teammates. I'm pretty excited and I can't wait to see the results afterwards. I'll update you on that every now and then. 'Til tomorrow! :)

Day 59 and 60: Movie Marathon

My weekend was spent ever so privately.

As what I always prefer, I stayed at home and watched movies all day Saturday. Being a bookworm, I've developed a new kind of fascination for films that I decided to gorge myself with endless movie streaming online. I watched The Silver Linings Playbook and now I know why people have a sheer appreciation for Jennifer Lawrence's talent and what she does with it. Opposite her, Bradley Cooper was not a disappointment either, totally taking a different direction from his role in The Hangover. Together, they waltzed in craziness only they could portray.

I also watched The life of Pi which took me to new heights in understanding trust, faith and religion. I actually bought the book a few years ago but never really had the interest of reading it. It's a shame, I know. And now I can't find my copy anywhere. I know I could just download an ebook online but this is one of those books I'd rather have a hard copy of. An ebook would just not give justice to the brilliance that is Yann Martel.

Pitch Perfect was next in line with it's unparalleled musicality and humor. I never thought Ana Kendrick could sing like that. Such talent was wasted in Twilight. The movie was an epic adaptation of Glee giving it's viewers the performance they were expecting and even more. I also started watching Zero Dark Thirty, a clear steer from the drama and feel good entertainment by the previous three films. Although I have yet to finish it, I have a feeling it will be amazing. Let's just hope it won't disappoint.

So, there goes my weekend! My back has been killing me from watching all of these films, I'm planning to get a massage tonight to cap off the week and get ready for Monday. Talk to you tomorrow!

Day 58: See through me

Thank God it's Friday! It's the last day of work for the week and I can finally take a rest. Plus, it's payday today! It doesn't get better than that.

So, let's go over what I did today. Or more specifically, what I wore today. Having most of my clothes for laundry, the only decent clothing left was a marroon shirt with scattered hearts all over it, which turned out not that decent at all. Of course I know the shirt was see-through but I didn't realize it was that revealing. Good thing I was wearing a black bra under it. I got really conscious when my teammates started noticing and teasing me about it but I just decided to go with it and tried my hardest to ignore all the stares.

There was not much left to discuss at work today since we finished the module earlier than expected. We just listened to some of our calls in the morning which stressed me a little coz I hate listening to my calls, much more with other people. Fortunately, my name didn't get called so that was a breather. After the first break, our trainor had us practice for our presentation on Monday's graduation. The group decided to have a variety of performances so it took us a while to piece all of it together. Anyway, it's just gonna be for fun so I hope everyone will have as much fun as we do.

For lunch, we decided to eat out as a team. There were a lot of debate on where to eat but in the end, we decided to go for Casa Verde. The place is famous for their baby back ribs so most of teammates decided to try it out. And since I was determined to stick with my diet, I went for their Watermelon Salad which was really delicious. It was paired with a Clubhouse Sandwhich which I ended up taking out because I was too full by the time I finished the salad.

After lunch, we just continued practicing and we also had side by side call listening with the tenured agents on the floor. Some of my teammates wanted to have a drink after work and they wanted me to come with them but I politely declined since I'm not really up for it. And to my defense, the place was really far away from where I live so I had to pass and went straight home. I remembered I made a promise to my roommate that I'll treat her once I get my first pay so I decided to treat her for dinner at my favorite place just across the street. I just had soup while I had her try their Seafood Marinara whilst sharing stories about our individual lives. It's always nice knowing something new about people you thought you already knew.

Day 57: Healthy Living

I was so early at work today that I didn't have to rush eating my breakfast. Only thing was, I had the worst breakfast food ever. I don't want to get into details, let's just leave it at that.

So anyway, we had our last embedding today so it was a little stressful. The calls that I got were a little bit overwhelming and most of the queries were new to me so I didn't really have the proper resolution. I even had one customer hang up on me because I took too long putting him on hold just for a very simple inquiry. But if there's one thing that I learned before, it is to never be hard on myself. I'm still starting out so it's just natural that I don't know everything yet. It's hard especially when I'm used to knowing what to do at the onset of the call but now I'm relearning everything over again. I'm pretty sure I'll get used to it in a couple of months.

On another note, I've been altering my diet for the past couple of days now. I've decided to eat proper breakfast, no rice for lunch and dinner will just be light. Surprisingly, I'm able to follow it religiously for three straight days now. I'm also gonna be trying out going to the gym soon. We have it for free in the office so might as well take advantage of it while I still can. I'm gearing up for a healthy living so I hope I'm able to keep up with it. Also, I'm planning to go back home again this month since my cousins are around but I still have to check my schedule though. I just hope all plans will push through this month. Can't wait for July!

P.S. I'm having a little crush with one of my teammates. But let's just sshhh about it for now. Haha. :)

Day 56: Count your blessings

It's always important to recognize the blessings given to us every single day and to appreciate the positive more than the negative aspects that happen in our everyday lives. So this post will be about gratitude for even if life is shitty sometimes, there's always something positive that comes along with it. We just need to remind ourselves more often.

The fact that I was able to wake up today is already something to celebrate about. I came to work early and was able to continue my streak of non-tardiness. Although I had to eat really fast for breakfast, I'm lucky enough to be on the better side of the world where I have access to food anytime. When we talk about work, I'm definitely still a newbie and there's a lot more I need to learn but I'm fortunate enough to land a job and earn more than the average daily wage. Also, one of the most shocking things happened while I was at work today. We played a game and out of twenty-three, I was one of the two winners. Take note, I NEVER win at anything. Plus, because it's a holiday, our trainor released us an hour early from work.

When it comes to my social life, I can't deny that I really miss my friends from before and sometimes I wish I was with them but I was given a new set of friends who sometimes makes me forget the void that I'm feeling. I know I have yet to get to know them but I'm just thankful for an opportunity to meet other people. I have also not been a vey good daughter to my parents but my family have always been there for me no matter what. I have the best parents one could ever have and my relationship with my sister has never been better.

My romantic life has been on a roll the past few months and sometimes, I get tired of waiting for the right person to come into my life. A lot of my friends are getting married and starting their own family and I'm still on the lookout, never knowing when I'll get there. And to be honest, this is one of the aspects in my life where negativity is almost looming over and I can barely see the light at the end of the tunnel. Every now and then I just have to remind myself to be patient and to have faith. I may not be there yet but I'm definitely closer than I was before.